"a little emotional"

hello!

i'm not sure if anyone still comes here but.. oh well.

anyway, i'm just been randomly blog hopping hoping to get some good reads (obviously i failed else i wouldn't be here right okay that's another story). yeah so i came across this blog of my old friend (okay this is not a good read, maybe an inspirational one okay whatever), let's just name her lola. haha. :P

okay so lola was my primary school friend.. and she's, well, to me, she's not nice at all. She hated me, to the core, i guess. If you've been reading my blog regularly (okay not like i blog regularly but you get my point), i hope you read a post of my bullied experience when i was young. And (like duh) lola was one of them.

for whatever reason lola hated me why, i really am still puzzled. And to lola, i really have no idea do you still remember me, or do you give a damn about me living in this world, or whether you read my blog or not; for whatever reason there is, i guess i have a hand in making you hate me so much. So i'll apologize here.

I am sorry.

but looking back at my past, or rather, our pasts, i feel that we were really too immature to speak about anything. Now that i study in singapore, and will probably proceed educations at foreign countries for, say, the next 5 years, i guess we won't meet anymore. Since standard 6, i've never met you, until now it has been 5 years. And to be truthful, i'm very very glad.

Because i don't know what am i suppose toi do when i see you. Deep inside, i still flinch when i imagine meeting you at a mall like 1u (since it's where everyone goes like literally :P). And i know i won't want to acknowledge your existence. I will just walk away.

this is arrogant. like i don't know.

but hey, i prefer this, or maybe you do the deeds and ignore me completely. Rather than we go like "Hi! so how are you, aww i've missed you! aiyo when go out hangout!"

please we know we will NEVER hangout.

And reading like 2 posts from your blog, i see how different our lives are. We're like, living at different poles of dimensions. We're different.

we're THAT different.

we're not different as in.. you curse and i don't. I mean this is not true, i do curse OCCASIONALLY...

we're different maybe because we live in different types of society. To make it a little more dramatic ..

"we live in different worlds. 2 worlds that will never collide. "

at least for now. unless you end up in singapore as well but THAT also doesn't mean we will meet each other in marina barage or something you get my point?

we're different already. we won't see each other anymore, and that really relieves me. Because as i've said, i don't want to see you anymore.

Eventhough i know i don't fancy the way you're living, either it's because you're trying too damn hard to gain popularity in the interschool arena, or you're just simply THAT kind of person (which, personally preferences aside, i don't think so), i hope you're happy.

I mean okay to be honest i hope i'm living a better life than you are. Given that you hated me so much and despised me like a piece of unwanted trash? I want to prove you wrong.

And i hope i did.

But then again, who am i to say that who's like is better? As long as i'm happy with mine, it's the best.

As long as you're happy with yours, it's the best as well.

So, Lola. I hope we don't meet anymore, for the rest of our lives.
That, we will be happier. Don't say i'm childish, because i am not. If you want a reason for this, it will be to trace back to the times and recall, how mean you were to me.

i wish you a happy life, Lola. And to hope that our lives, never collide.

i hope you're happy with this. really(: