To everyone.

I guess it's time for some cheesy post. (: So, today is the last day i'll see you guys and trust me, that's the worst feeling ever. I managed to steal some time to blog because i won't be able to blog in a short while. I honestly can't imagine life without you guys. I mean like, we see each other almost everyday and i don't want to imagine seeing different people in a totally different place.

Since i'm gonna 'celebrate' new year and christmas both in Singapore, i guess i should wish you guys an early Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! May all your wishes come true, truly. And since 2009 is coming to an end, and i'm leaving very soon, i guess i should just write a thank you list to all my favourite people in the planet.

To Soon Len,

Thanks so much for everything my best friend. I've no idea how we became best friends, and no idea how we came to tighten our bond this year. But honestly, all the sleepovers is very nice. You guys made me so happy and sad all the time. I love you and thank you for being my best friend for no apparent reason, just because you wanna be my best friend. You just sent me a card and that's the best thing on earth, i swear. You wrote everything i wanted to say in the card and from my heart, i want to say, thanks for every single thing. And yes, you made me laugh non stop. You're the bestest, i love you. (:

To Samantha,

Thanks for your late night DHL. Personal DHL, to be exact. I'm so glad that we became close last year. I'm so glad that my results improved, thanks to you. You're so awesome. I missed those calls you made for me. And when i rant about my mom for not letting me out, you're alwasy there and comforting me. You're a very very good friend. Your card, its so touching. It's the best present ever from you. I'm sorry if i ever offended you in any ways, truly sorry. And if you're really wondering, yes, you're THAT awesome. I love you. (:

To Valerie,

Thanks for being my pea all these time. I know we do have invisible conflicts and secretly feel unhappy about each other. But hey, i guess that's what makes our bond stronger. you're a great friend. And honestly, i'm really so happy to see you scream and laugh when you got good results for PMR, i like the way you are happy and great. You're always there to be crazy with me. I really appreciate you. And sorry, i didn't give you your birthday present. Truly sorry. I'm sincere, i swear. I hope you forgive me. You're so great, don't worry you'll get a good friend to go recess with you. I will miss you so much. I love you. (:

To Sze Teng,

Thanks for always looking for me for advices. And those marching times. You're just so great. I'm so glad and happy that you've found back who you cared about most and be all happy and cheerful all the time. You're real, you're sincere. You're always so real to everyone and you never hide your feelings. Even tho' it's not really nice when you're not in a good mood, but i still like the way you are. I will miss those times when you, me and Valerie laughed in class. I love you. (:

To Kai Qian,

Thanks for inspiring me in so many ways. You didn't even notice it, i know. But's okay. I love studying with you everytime before afternoon PMR. You're so great. And i admire your courage to India. You're a person worth learning from. From maths, to life theories. You're far more mature than all of us and i adore you so much. you're just too awesome. I love you. (:

To Ying-Yi,

Thanks for always accompanying me in class, i know sometimes i do annoy you. And i'm sorry. But just so you know, you're very nice. You're probably the nicest girl ever. And i really can't be who you are, all tolerant and nice. You're a person worth being with. And i swear i appreaciated you for sitting next to me during the first day of school. I love you. (:


To Melissa Wong,

Thanks for all your calls last time. Even tho' it's long time ago, but your calls really did make me feel all safe and secure. I love talking to you. And calling you my favourite big fat mel mel. Obviously you're not fat now, i'm the fatter one. But's okay, who cares? I'm sorry and i know sometimes you go through conflicts with your friends and i don't know about it. But hey, you've so many good friends around you, no one will let you fall. What am i suppose to say, please take care of yourself and be the old Mel i know. Since standard 2. Be happy, and make people happy. You're super great, I love you. (:

To Thiam Joo,

Thanks for always fetching me here and there. Thank you tj's dad! Your dad is so nice. Tell him that. We knew each other for one year and you already are such a great friend to me. I really really appreciated everything you've done for me. Sending flowers on my table. Tho' its not from you. You're so great. Greatest guy friend i've ever had, really. I love you. (:

To Gabrina,

Thanks for planning the Sunway outing. It's the greatest outing ever and i had the best fun ever. ou little balerina, hahaha. You can't make it to our sleepover #2! That's sad. And somehoe open conversations without you just doesn't feel the same. You're all that unique. Your smile is so nice, so cheerful. And i truly thank you for all that you've done for me, big and small. Or.. whether it matters to you or not. Really, at least i know it matters alot to me. I love you. (:

To Kailiang,

Thanks for making me laugh all the time. You're like the funniest guy i've ever met. When I'm sad in Singapore i'll always look at your picture, or think of your big big big nostrils. Really. And just to tell you the truth, you're an awesome guy. Because you've experienced things that other haven't, i know you're mature and talented. You're intelligent, i can see that. You know when to cheer people up, and when you're sorry, you don't deny that. I love you. (:

To Xin Pei,

I just got close to you these few weeks and you totally changed the previous impression of you to me. I'd always thought i wouldn't clique with you, but you're really nice and happy. And honestly, i admire your courage to take bus home. That's really really brave. You're so impressive at certain times, like during dancing map's time. hahah. You're an awesome friend, even tho' i'm not all close with you but i just do know. I love you. (:

To Jun Lay,

Thanks for taking my leaving as such a big thing to you. hahaa. You're the person that says 'i miss you' the most to me. I know, sounds wrong. But i know you don't mean THAT way, hahaha. And honestly you're the vainest person ever. I really do hope you can cope well between relationships and studies. I don't mean bad intentions, but you know, i know loads of girls like you, hahaha. So yeah, I love you.(:

To Aaron,

Thanks for being sensible and nice. You're just too nice. And you sound so different in texts and real life. You're the best monitor, responsible and nice. I love talking to you la. Please talk to me more often, it brightens up my day. It shows me that there are people that understands me. You're the only person that i've told you my dreams, hahahaha. You're awesome awesome awesom! I love you. (:

To Nicholas,

Thanks for forgiving me when i kicked you. And i'm really sorry. You're a great friend, i know. And don't be too disspointed in your PMR result, you're smart, and awesome, and gentleman. In one word, you're really nice and good. I really hope you can continue that part of you till the next time we meet. I love you. (:

To Sue Lu,

Thanks for always sharing your feelings with me. And allow me to express my feelings to you when i'm sad, or happy or excited or dissapointed. You're a good listener. I enjoy all the heart-to-heart talk we share all these while. You're so ideal. You're a friend i know i can't get in Singapore and i really do appreciate everything you've done to me. I love you. (:

To Hui Xian,

Thanks for being all humble and smart. Your good sides just inspire to be a better person. Your good results motivated me to study harder, your good personality inspired me to be less proud of myself and be a better student. You're just a great friend. And i'm never jealous of you all these while because i know you work hard for everything you've achieved. I sorta adore your spirit. I love you. (:

To Jessie,

Thanks for accompanying me when i need one. you always accompany me during SPBT and in class. you're a great girl. Your flaws eventually just outshow your great and happy insides. You may not be the perfect girl on earth, but you're different in your own way. And i admire your way of doing things, efficient and confident. I love you. (:

To Elvina,

Thanks for being funny with SL. You're so nice. Despite evrything that has happened last time, you can still be so nice. You showed me that friendships needs to have conflicts, only then we'll see each others good side. I see you as a friendly, happy, cheerful and helpful classmate. Maybe you don't see me that way, but hey, i just want you to know, i really appreciated everything. I love you. (:

And to all of you that've written the notes for me in SL's card, that's the awesome-est present ever on Earth. It worth more than anything. I'll appreaciated it. You guys just showed me what is the most i've got in 2009. It's the friendships that i'll cherish forever. Until the rest of my life. I swear. (:

thanks to,

Soon Len,
Alice Chew,
Emily Chiu,
Sue Lu,
Gareth,
Mel W,
Zi Ying,
Darren,
Nicholas,
Daniel,
Pui Mun,
Chi Yi,
Shu Wen Ng,
Shu Wen Loo,
Mel Chee,
Li Jing,
Andrea,
Gabrina,
Michelle,
Ler Yeen,
Valerie,
Samantha,
Sze Teng,
Soon Hwa,
Cassandra Chung,
Candace Goh,
Joey Tang,
Aaron U,
Cik Aishah,
Jun Lay,
Thiam Joo,
Jessie,
Pooi Yee,
Hui Xian,
Hui Yee,
Zhen Ian,
Pui cheng,
Yin Hui.

For the notes in SL's card. You guys are the best.

Forever and always, my friends- all of you will stay in my heart.

(:

Love,
Kean Lynn.

There's just too much to lose, isn't it? I'll miss all of you funny shit retards.

I love you all lah, simple as that.

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Crazy, tomorrow is what we're waiting for after working hard for 3 years and studying our asses off 3 months before PMR, hmm?

good luck yo' all.

goodbye and goodnight!

I have the best classmates ever. We should really continue our

Midnight Open Conversation and
KLCC Park Open Conversation and
Burger King Open Conversation.

HAHAHA.

Our open conversation is always about the same old girl. And everytime, it always starts with Nicholas.

:D !

*inside joke*

And how can burger kind not have refill! ): How did we survive talking like crazy people in KLCC's burger king weihhhhh. We're bravo! :D anywaaaaaay, we shall continue these sleepovers everytime we meet! :D

Oh and my cutie flower on my favourite Crocs's shoes just dissapear at the LRT station. That's sad. I wanna get a new one, don't care:P

I think SL's sister is the real bomb. She makes me laugh the whole while when we 'gamble' with monopoly money and kailiang just had to lose 16 thousand to the chongker.

hehe.

and not to forget, dancing map! Eventho' i really can't play. Boo all the way hahahaha.

I have the best friends ever, really!

chucky muckies.

You know what, I came to figure out that my UK trip was more than hot guys and cold weathers and lovely shops. Okay the story goes like this. I was on my way home on the airplane from London to Dubai. There's this little Indian girl that sits beside me. She's more like the fair type of Indian and she's really really pretty. She's 6 years old. Her mom sits beside her with a little baby girl in her arms. Behind us, it was the father, another toddler little boy, and a 9 year-old son. Their stopping by Dubai to transit to Pakistan. They stayed in London.

This little girl, Maliya, was so beautiful. She was so nice, so kind. I talked to her and she gave me this very sincere feeling. I felt so real with her. It's like i can tell her every secret of mine and she won't laugh at me. She'll be really kind. I told one of my flaws to her, she hold my hand, with her small, cold hand; and say, "It's going to be okay, you're not weird, you're probably just being yourself to have this teeny peeny flaw."

I love her.

Before I came down from the plane, I didn't even get to say goodbye to her and i had to leave. Then I realised that i'm that type of people that can't tell my friends about my deepest secret. I need a stranger, a stranger that will not hide her emotions, and she will not look down at me. I'm pretty sure Maliya doesn't get what i was talking about. But that's not the point, her words just let me feel better. Eventho' she doesn't get anything, i know she's very sincere to let me feel better. She wants me to feel better.

She's an angel.

I told her "Next time when you grow up, you must remember you once met a 15 year old girl on the plane on the way to Pakistan, when you're 6. Okay?"

She nodded and smiled. I want her to remember me, because I'll remember her forever. I guess it's quite stupid to think that but i somehow feel like i wanna meet her again. Maybe one day i'll bump into her somewhere? But i'm pretty sure we won't recognise each other anymore.

so then, i suddenly understand that there are certain people in life that you can only meet once in a lifetime. A few minutes, hours, days, or years? One day, we'll leave each other. I know we've got facebook and all but that's not the point. What if i met an angellic stranger like Maliya and will never meet her anymore? What's the use of facebook anyway?

We have so many friends around us. But tyhe hard truth is, we often take them for granted. For example, have you tried before that you just know today is this particular friend's birthday but because of the tv show, you tell yourself "later only wish lah". Have you tried before when one of your friends called and wanted to talk to you because she was sad, and you were concentrating on the tv show and you tell her "i'll call you back later cos i'm busy" but never did? Have you tried before preparing a present for somebody but kept on delaying until her birthday is over and just send a super apologitical text which is not sincere at all? Have you ever, really really thank someone for someone in a while? Or apologise to someone for certain reasons for a while? Like I mean, really really sincere? You're all just reading this yourselves and you can be totally honest and nobody will know.

I mean like, take Maliya. Even to a stranger, she can be so sincere. Now don't question me how do i know. She's just a 6 years old girl! How far can she go and how much can she pretend? And furthermore, I can feel it.

Like me, i have so many friends that i'm leaving and i feel a little sad because we're just being friends that clique together. We just say thankyous and sorrys because they've done something good to us/we've done something wrong to them. Since when are we heart-sincere?

If this post sounds offensive, or whoever of you that thinks i'm just over-reacting, then forget it. But ask yourselves.

You'll understand how much have we been taking each other for granted.

there are certain people in life that you can only meet once in a lifetime, & you've no second chance anymore

That's NOT NOT NOT a paper board.

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Having you, i just own the world.

greetings! I met a hot guy in the united kingdoms. Will be home soon, love! I'm using a cell to update so don't expect much. :) anyway, i love my ted <3 Goodbye and goodnight!